Holy fucking hell……
It has been well over a month since I have sat down and done anything related to this podcast and blog. And for good reason(s). Now, well, as you may have noticed, we are quarantined. Most of us. My wife and I especially since we have both been sick for about 9 days now, and no determination as of yet as far as what the actual cause is. Could it be this Coronavirus? Sure can. Could it be something else? Sure can. But due to this insanity I have found time in between scanning tax documents to sit down and vent about a few things. So buckle up….
I am a data driven person. I like to stick with the facts and not let emotion get in the way. Its how I roll. I use logic and reasoning to make decisions. And I consider myself a top notch decision maker. I’m usually very good at sifting the facts out of the words that my face sees and hears and at recognizing when I’m being given an opinion vs a fact. Of course I am prone to an angry tantrum when the data doesn’t go in my preferred direction, which is emotional, but that is about the extent of it. If the world doesn’t make sense, I get anxious. Which, I suppose, is also emotional. In order for the world to make sense I need information. Its the not knowing things that bothers me. The more I know the more I can position myself and my family for the most likely potentially positive outcome. And then take the temperature of things and course correct along the way….. Boom! Look at me with life all figured out and shit……….HA! Did I almost have you convinced? Me neither. Nobody knows what the fuck is going on. Which is ok. At least we are all in the same boat. I don’t feel as behind the curve (which we are trying to flatten!). But all I know is that I don’t know things and the things I do know don’t make sense right now. So I am anxious as aforementioned. I haven’t been anxious enough to behave irrationally yet. In fact I have made some pretty wise decisions if I do say so myself. I seem to have avoided much of the major economic fall out from this catastrophe. All other things being equal, I came out ahead on that front. So far…. I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch by any means, but I would be having more angry tantrums if the data was worse. And my paycheck showed up this morning….So a sigh of relief there ok good. Look, a lot of people have died from this virus and many more are going to die. And that sucks ASS. And this virus is going to bankrupt more people than it kills and that is a fact. And that sucks ASS too.
My wife has been coughing. A lot. I love my wife. A lot. I mean we have been quarantined together for 9 days running and we haven’t argued once. We still laugh. We even laugh about the idea of arguing during a quarantine which just makes us laugh more. We have been through a lot together, way more than just this quarantine, and we only ever get stronger. Its the best part of my entire existence on this planet. The point I am making is, I am blessed. Very blessed.
I’m the first to admit, I made jokes about the virus early on. I think I said something about selling pennies for $100 each and telling people that if they stick it under their tongue it will cure coronavirus……What a DICKHEAD thing to say NOW. But when I said it, it was funny. Whats really funny is how whats funny can change on a fucking DIME. There I go thinking about money again. No. Clearly this is a serious matter. Don’t stick pennies in your mouth. Even when there isn’t a pandemic.
My grandpa died last Friday the 13th. Its ok, he died of old age, mostly. I mean I’m 37 and I still had a grandpa….Remember what I said about being blessed? Unfortunately, the wife and I were just showing the first symptoms of being sick with something that morning so everyone was waiting to see if we could get to the hospital and visit before they removed his medicine and replaced it with morphine. If you can remember, last Friday nobody really knew what to do yet. The doctor told us absolutely do not visit an ICU in a hospital right now, as there is a pandemic beginning, dumbass! They didn’t call us a dumbass because nobody really knew what to do yet. But they did say the part about not visiting. So I had to say goodbye to grandpa on Face Time. And even worse, I couldn’t be there for my mom. And I still haven’t seen her yet to give her a hug. Some other people have died in the last month too and ….I dunno. I’m getting tired of typing now. Thank god for Face Time. By God I mean the computer simulation we are living in. That’s a whole other blog. Later.